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You're still here
I'm so far-gone, but you're still here
At least that's how things appear
A photograph replaces the physical half
Entwining intimately with infinite memories
My grief, I won't show it
So the half, you won't know it
You never knew my love because I never knew it
Sorry, God. I messed with her mind & now I blew it
Seeing is believing, so when I said 'screw it'
We were both blown away at the fact that I could do it

And I'm still here
She's so far-gone, and I'm still here
I still hear the laughter
The late-night, sweet chit-chatter
But now I hear the pitter-patter of rain
I've been feigned by this pain that I live with
Losin' the heart that your love used to live in
Going loco cuz I long to be forgiven
Feelin' like a hut when I used to be a buildin'
And you were my window to the world.
You WERE my world. The only visible girl.

And now I hear the echoes in the chambers
Into my heart, I shout your name
The voice that shouts back is stranger
than the sound of the original
I'm starting to realize reality
Leaves a lot of hints subliminal
Just to test our originality in handling emotions unwanted
I feel a little naked if my love goes unflaunted
Memories in this house got me haunted
Like a geek gettin' taunted daily
And I bet you thought I was talkin' about Phylli
I said that you wouldn't know the half
Now I got you curious like a kitty
I pity the fool who think they know me as if I'm a statistic
So today I will NOT be food for the minds of the narcissistic
I can handle my love, narc
I don't need you to guide me
Go on about your day, I got Jesus beside me
Prolly think I'mo come back like I need you
But there was a time when I would beseech you to take me back
Like the games you hated, I played 'em
So you took them to Gamestop to trade 'em
Like clippers to hair, you reduced me to nothin'
Until the day I found out that I CAN do somethin'
On my own
Ever since then I've been in some sort of zone
Prone to depression, but me stressin ain't gon' lead me to my blessin'
So the sins I atone for allow me to be shown more
Like I'm lookin' in the mirror at the evils my clone wore
And what my mirror says I'm seeing is the most beautiful being
That anyone could have ever known before
Like that girl in the movies that washed up on shore
And me being young didn't help me any more
back then, but now my 'maturing' is through
We're due to debut what we used to pursue
Our love, but my love please don't misconstrue
My passionate word for being ANYTHING taboo
I believe this time apart made me better for you
And although I wanna undo what I caused you
I think the pain & hurt sorta helped to cause YOU
So occasionally, on nights like this, I pause to
Reflect on the days we'd spend
As the greatest of lovers or the best of friends
I stare at your photos, completely in awe
Because you are a reflection of perfection
In you, I see NO flaw
Come to think about it, I remember your 'shady' spell
The one where you'd love to retreat to your perverbial shell
You thought you were safe & all alone
Until I accidentially heard you singing on the phone

...so lovely...

You bloomed from there & the rest is history
And although 'I' can't stop 'ME' from missing 'WE'
I'm about as comfortable as I'm ever gonna be
If anything happens in the future, we'll see
But for now you'll remain my one...

...my only...

Ms. Teri.